V A E L O R A - Numb is Worse

You said something that made me laugh.
Now I'm searching for the consequence,
But I can't find the aftermath.
Maybe if I stay a little longer,
Something dormant might awake.
The silence just keeps growing stronger,
Proving I'm too far to break.
I thought I'd break if I came back,
But breaking would've been enough.
At least it would've been intact,
Something still alive to cut.
Numb is worse than crying, flat is worse than low.