Damon Price - After I Was a Kid

I didn't get told.
I didn't get comfort.
I learned control.
If I don't rest, I stay alert.
Peace feels fake like it could hurt.
Every room I count the doors.
Every calm feels like before.
When someone's close, I pull away.
I don't believe the words they say.
I learn the hard way: what to hold.
You don't feel warm when you grow cold.